The Waiting is the Hardest Part
38 weeks. It's about that time. Just waiting. Twiddling our thumbs. Wondering if every little contraction or pregnancy weirdness means we'll get to head to the hospital. But no. Not yet.
The hardest physical part of this pregnancy was being so extremely tired all of the time, but the hardest emotional part has been patience during these last weeks. Kara came at 37 weeks, setting an expectation of early delivery. But 37 weeks came and went. So, now what? I mean, obviously, this pregnancy has to end soon. It's just hard not knowing when.
I've actually started browsing the Internet trying to be aware of ALL the signs of labor. Browsing the Internet is not a typical habit of mine (especially looking at chat forums), and I feel it shows a little bit of desperation. People say some really crazy and wrong stuff on the Internet, but at least I know I'm not alone in my lack of patience. I promise I'm not going to try any of the weirdo stuff people post to get labor started. Personally, I'd rather wait.
Even Kara is starting to lose patience. Most days she asks, "When is God going to let Baby Aimee come out? I want her to be here now." It's really precious. I don't know what Kara is expecting from Aimee, and we have tried to be as honest about babies as we can (they cry, they take Mommy's attention, they can't play yet, etc), but she is still excited and wanting to be a Big Sister. She has even made little videos for Aimee telling her how much she loves her. Kara is truly a Fithian. That sweet nurturing side did not come from me.
Please be praying for us to have joy in waiting and to use this time well.
Here is one of Kara's videos. You can tell it was made on the iPad.